I hated clapping because there is nothing clap worthy about this betrayal. I’ve never known anything to cut this deep. I was so devastated the night I found out that I winked out into the blank buzzing noise of my mind for nearly an hour. I “awoke” to the chattering of my teeth. My reality shattered into a million pieces that night.

Anyone who thinks hiding this addiction is no big deal is either conscienceless or sadistically cruel. It’s utterly annihilating to the partner’s sense of self and reality.

I’m writing my story about this. It’s due out in a few months. I hope you’ll keep an eye out for it. I’m editing the part where we, well he, seeks treatment. I was ignored like an afterthought. I’d never felt so alone in my life.

I’m so sorry to hear your story. Thank you for sharing it. Have you found some help? If not, please email me. I can point you in the direction of excellent caring support.


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