…spouse, although I was primed in my family of origin and was scared to death of seeming “stuck up.” When I developed this problem of essentially being absent from my own life, I had no name for it as it gradually developed in me. It took time, but I not only healed from echoism, I moved beyond healing it and into a healthy narc…
What a powerful statement —” being absent from your own life!” That struck a chord. A new way to view it.
It’s become an ingrained part of my psyche, especially when I meet someone new. To ensure the relationship continues on my terms, I camouflage too much of myself. It’s hard work to come away from the proverbially position of blending into the wallflowers and to express myself authentically and transparently.
Thank you for your comment! You got me thinking more on this topic.